i got my wisdom teeth pulled friday....its now tuesday...i look like a balloon...they think its dry socket 
..i get to leave work early becasue the dentist wants to see me asap! i can't sleep, i can't eat, smile laugh...nothing. this sucks!!! The wife and i kinda mad up so she has been doing her best to take care of me......( i told her i just need to be mad for a while)!... so im sitting at work looking like a chipmunck and feeling like i have a fat man sitting on my head and its my last week here and then im unemployed ....when it rains it pours! i need to look for a new job but i cant call places because its too hard to talk! who would have thought that teeth could be this painful...but helll good thing i did it because im loosing my insurance...woohooo...back to not going to the doc...we all know that cobra insurance is like giving your first born! i dont know what the hell to do!
moodim in a very bad mood today because of the shit with my girlfriend last night and being at work is not helping my mood. i have people who have been living in trailers their entire life calling wanting dna test to find out whose their "baby daddy is" if you kept your legs closed you know. i have people who make me repeat my self over and over again as if i fucking stutter! Being in the city i see way too many crazy people and its worse when they call...they never want to get off the phone....they think i can fix all their problems. HA they are talking to someone who doesnt CARE i dont care that your son hates you, i dont care that your bestfriend slept with your man, i dont care that you need your teeth fixed, i dont care that you cant pay your rent cause your a crackhead. I also hate it when people call and they think they have called somewhere else and cant understand that " YOU HAVE THE WRONG #!!!!"
like the saying i goes....the more people i meet the more i like my dog!
Ok so i feel like an ass..my girlfriend just told me that she had still smoked pot when we go together. i thought she didnt do it after we started talking. i mean she lived 2 hours away...how nieve i am! i found out when she broke up with me she smoked...and then when we got back together i asked her about it and she lied...one night at the bar her friend slipped and told me...I WAS CRUSHED! i wasnt sure if i wanted to stay with her...but it took some time to trust her again and now i feel like she is just a lier...i guess the old saying is true fool me once shame on you..fool me twice shame on me. AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH i cant say im not guilty of lying to someone i was with and i feel horrible..i guess im getting what i give but i love her sooo very much..... how do i trust her when i feel so betrayed...i even asked after i found out the last time if she had ever did it since we have been together...she said "NO baby just that once..i tell you everything" NOT!! lier i all i ask is for you to be open and tell me things..the thing you know are important to me. Relationships are a "2" way street, but with you we are stopped at the intersection and we have 2 ways to go...break ave or life street....and we are holding up traffic.
I dont like feeling like a fool and not being told the full truth.
